Freeda
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Hey, the re-order was cheaper. Winning!
We went to double over time in basketball again but lost in sudden death when a kid heaved a hook shot and the damn thing went in. Good for him!! It was his only basket.
James had another great game. Joining this team has been great for his confidence. He scored another 19 points today and drilled a 3-pointer with six seconds left to send the game to overtime. It was a pretty cool moment for him, there was a little pause in there when he shot it, that the gym went silent and then erupted when his shot snapped the net.
Feels really good when your kid does well.
Yesterday was my mom's birthday. She would have been 70. But she isn't. So there ya are.
I still get the idea to call mom sometimes to tell her something, then it's like, oh yeah, that part of my life is over.
Some people call me the thread killer, yeah
Some call me the killer of fun
Some people call me Freeda
Ok, I just learned that the next lyric in The Joker contains the word "Pompitous". WTF?
I don't do that very much. I do a lot of "oh, I wish mom could see this." But at my nieces' dance recital, I was caught quite off guard when I thought "oh, I wonder if mom's here yet?" That was pretty soon after and it just hit me like a bag of bricks.
Someone said it's like losing your compass and that is the most resonant reference I've yet been given.
I also think it's interesting that now that she is gone, I am ... ready? not ready but have no choice? processing a lot of trauma stuff from my past. One of mom's highest values was someone who could be "a brick" in crisis, so maybe I don't have to do that anymore? Or *can't* do that anymore? Maybe I've lost my capacity for stoicism? Or maybe she was the foundation for my walls that made life manageable? It's like, she died, I grieved, there was a little pause, and then all this crap came roaring back from other stuff. I'm a hot mess over here.
Even the home grown ones?
Actually, I haven't had any really, really good tomatoes in a while. I saved seeds from a plant I had a few years back that was very sweet and very tasty but I haven't planted a garden since then so I don't know if they'll be as good. It seems like even the varieties you plant at home are getting more and more bland or my memories are just better than my realities.
Even the home grown ones?
Actually, I haven't had any really, really good tomatoes in a while. I saved seeds from a plant I had a few years back that was very sweet and very tasty but I haven't planted a garden since then so I don't know if they'll be as good. It seems like even the varieties you plant at home are getting more and more bland or my memories are just better than my realities.
My dream is to see wild donkeys; cuz, you know, donkeys are my spirit animal. Been going to Bog Island for 30+ years and haven't seen one yet. There are goats galore.
My buddy that smokes all the time swears by Kingsford Charcoal.
He says it burns at a lower temp and he can control the heat better. But he has an offset firebox smoker and I think it has a blower too. I haven't tried it in my Akorn but I can't see it being any better than lump charcoal for what I have.
It's not too bad out now. A little cool. I'm filling the dumpster, so a lot of in and out.
When I was a kid, we'd have sliced tomatoes with most meals during the summer.
A stack of wonderbread and butter all year, at my grandparents' house.
That's a pretty unbelievable price and in Kahala too.
It makes me kind of suspicious because Kahala is a super rich area. Here's a snippet from the always accurate internet: The median home value in Waialae-Kahala is $1,541,000.
for Jon? ESPECIALLY THE HOME GROWN ONES.
That's a pretty unbelievable price and in Kahala too.
It makes me kind of suspicious because Kahala is a super rich area. Here's a snippet from the always accurate internet: The median home value in Waialae-Kahala is $1,541,000.