As you are so fond of pointing out to everyone else, this is the space for venting and pity parties if that is what you need.
Speaking of venting, I am a little stressed at the moment - the guy who left whose job I was placed into was a real wizard, and I am barely keeping my head above water. I am stressing because I have this irrational fear that they are going to realize I can not do this job and then they will demote me or worse. Every day I get up and say to myself, "Today is the day! I WILL figure this 5#!z out and everything will work!"
But every day there is ANOTHER problem, and since I am kind of having to do my old job too since there is no one else doing that, it gets stressy. I feel bad that I am not moving forward on my projects and it also feels like my support response is slipping. Everyone here is all smiles, I know they understand, but *I* feel like I am not doing my best and it is frustrating. Not to mention the reduced PoHo time hahahahahhaha. I come here when my stress and frustration need a break or my brain will explode.
I left a high-paying job with great benefits that was super easy for me. I was looking for a challenge and I found it. I just hope I am able to rise to it. Some days I have doubts and want to just hide. Tomorrow is another status meeting where I will probably have to tell them the new environment is still not ready. I have a feeling that guy I replaced would have had it done two weeks ago. Hopefully it is just my crazy brain and it's all good, but some days that's how I feel.
I am sorry to hear that you don't like IT, because we have a couple of open positions here...
(((Damon))) I don't think anyone is as hard on you as YOU are! Do your very best, and things are going to come together for you....